it all began with pulling out all of my eyebrows and eyelashes.
allow me to explain:
in my teens and twenties, i had trichotillomania.
at 26, i had not one eyelash or brow hair left.
seeing my reflection, i realized
i was perpetually fighting life and for that to change,
i had to make peace with myself.
now, 25+ years into this journey,
here’s what I know for sure:
i am what i’d been searching for.
i am my own hero, healer, and source of love.
life is about creating the experience i want.
1998. i was 26 when
I received a life-changing message in a gutted bathroom amid a messy home renovation.
Some context:
On the outside, it seemed I was managing my life pretty well. But inside, I was struggling daily.
I was either anxious or depressed, constantly overwhelmed, and because I’d been stuck in this vicious cycle for a decade, I was full of self-doubt.
Because of stress, I developed trichotillomania: compulsive hair-pulling.
I had pulled out every last one of my eyebrows and eyelashes.
I saw myself in the bathroom mirror and heard my inner voice whisper: “Stop. You have a choice.”
This message was simple but powerful and what came next was a determined, slow, but steady practice:
I noticed myself doing this stress-induced habit, recognized that was my chance to change it, and focused my attention on how I wanted to feel at that moment.
And it worked.